The Neglectful Blogger

 

I have been AWOL from my blog for over a week now as our schedules turned chaotic. I had an idea this would happened but I tried to hope that I would still have time to write. The past two weeks was a blur. Airplanes, buses and trains; we've been out and about non-stop since we got back to SG. I’ve got no complaints though, this is what I wanted then and it’s still what I want now. Being here only gave me confidence about decisions I’ve made.

The plans I've been mulling about for months has finally turned into reality. We were able to settle the things we had to before we left the PH. We were working, worrying and running around to finish everything up to the moment we were about to board the plane. Thankfully, despite the chaos, we got it all done.

The first few days were centered on family and making a new list of things to do for the life we want to make. The list was longer than any other one I’ve ever made. So in the spirit of getting the best out of the fresh start we were granted, we got a move on with our plans. Emails were sent and we’ve been through a ton of places. Today, Ogot has an interview and I have to catch up on my writing, among other things.

A new worry has come up in my radar. Job hunting in a new country is difficult to say the least. In addition, my field of work has an elaborate matrix of interviews and exam before I can officially get hired. As much as I don’t want to, I’m beginning to doubt myself. Everyone seems confident with my abilities but me. I’m trying to convince myself that I can do this as I’ve already gone too far to just turn around and go back. I’ve passed the point of no return and I don’t wanna go back anyways.

My mind is still a haze and I’m barely able to put things into words. This attempt is to just let some thoughts spill from my head, because otherwise I may not make it to an actual interview without blabbing about incoherent non sense. So in other words, my entries are back. My outlet remains the same but my world no longer is..